Loneliness

I don't pretend I know the secret to be happy alone, but sometimes people ask me if I have a girlfriend or childrens and a lot of people seems to think that living alone is a terrible thing. So I tell them I'm happy like that to reassure them... Or is it to reassure me? So I took some time to think this through... I can't pretend that if a had the choice, I'd be alone, but between this and what I see in most (I said most, not all) couples, I prefer my situation. You see, I am a strange person, but I can't go and talk to my friends about how dumb I think my girlfriend his, and then come back home and tell her I love her. Most of you will think that is obvious, but listen to your coworkers talk about their "loved ones" and you'll know what i'm talking about.

When I say I want to wait for the good one I really meen it. Even if she never comes, I am prepared to wait, and anyway, I enjoy my life really! It's not perfect, it's pretty boring some days, but at least it gives me time to think, and thinking is the thing I enjoy the most! If I die one day, I hope it is from brain explosion because I would have been thinking too much!

thinking too much has its downsides though, I'm not an easy person to live with... But I'm assuming it now and I know myself better having spent so many time with me! And now more then ever before, I can say I know what I want to do with my life, and even how I'm going to do it, so whoever feels fit to jump in and live this life with me that's great. But I won't let anyone slow me down like I did so many times before. I know that may sound selfish, but that's what I want to do...

About blogging!

First I want to say that I haven't forgot you my dear readers, my life's been busy lately but don't worry I have so much to talk about and it will come soon. I don't know why you read me, what I write here is really personnal feelings that I tought no one would care or want to read. but I do know one thing, I love writing and getting all your feedbacks.

Those who know me in real life know that I don't talk much, and even less about how I feel. So blogging for me is really as important as it is hard to do. Most of the time I start writing then I delete it all. But I'm working on it and I really wanted to thank you all for being there, in this important moment of my life (you'll know why it's an important moment in an upcoming post).

That's all for now, but expect more really soon!! I really love you all!!!